tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40873588707633679882012-01-31T02:30:46.264-06:00tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.comBlogger1861100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-70925609582974875952011-11-06T01:48:00.002-05:002011-11-06T01:59:24.791-05:00

I'm dusting off the old secret blog but mostly because I need to post today thanks to NaBloPoMo and just don't have the energy to post on my public site. Thus...this post allows me to keep the commitment of posting each day.I went to a wedding reception earlier today and had a gala event I attended last night. Both were great events, but I felt so awkward at times as I flew solo to both events.

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-81002387119635008342010-11-04T11:17:00.003-05:002010-11-04T13:20:52.043-05:00

I decided earlier this year after much thought that my theme word for the year was going to be LOVE. I vowed to:Love myself...which I haven't. I have a not-so-secret tactic of putting others before myself, allowing me to avoid everything about myself. I've had girlfriends call me out on this and the hard part is knowing that selflessness is a good thing, there has to be some focus on myself at

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-61256778891884160692010-09-26T11:22:00.004-05:002010-09-26T12:03:10.559-05:00

I had an encounter the other night that was one of those 'a-ha' moments which has had me thinking about WTF I need to do to bust out of it.While at a tech event, I ran into a woman who within the past month has had a makeover. Now, I don't know if this was a 'professional' makeover or what, but she's had some amazing photos taken that she's using on her profiles online and she's dressing up more.

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-28967236322149141372010-06-02T09:15:00.003-05:002010-06-02T09:58:51.136-05:00

I've always been a person to look at a bad situation as a learning experience. "What did I learn about myself from this," I often ask myself. Recently, I've made an attempt at dating...whatever that looks like. I've let myself have fun, opened my heart to the possibility of someone and have even been hurt. All of that, good and bad, is helping me figure out what I want and what's important to ME.

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-40085129130419512362010-05-07T10:00:00.002-05:002010-05-07T10:52:10.800-05:00

This week has been a doozie...and that's an understatement. I think I've cried more this week than I have this entire year. My heart feels like it's beating a million beats a minute. My 'to do' list is completely overwhelming (so I ignore it). I'm in a bizarre love triangle with a guy who tells me I'm beautiful (more on that) and a guy who I'm interested in who doesn't even think to tell me he's

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-37528726919068490612010-03-21T10:29:00.004-05:002010-03-21T10:54:55.938-05:00

So often I find myself living life with no direction or purpose. Yes, I'm successful, have tons of friends, and life isn't bad, but I'm not making a difference. I'm just 'being'. I'm happy, but think there's more I could be doing that would bring true happiness to my life.For the past 4 years, I've had the philosophy that you should be passionate about what you are doing in life. That could be

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-22608069908103338332009-11-29T21:24:00.002-06:002009-11-29T21:41:30.740-06:00

More and more lately I'm asking the question, "what's wrong with me?" I've signed up for Match.com and have had a little interest, but nothing worth pursuing. I mean, I want the message to at least have semi-correct grammar."The last guy" pinged me the other night, after I unfollowed him and then sent a tweet that was about him. I'm sure he saw it, felt bad and pinged me. There's no way that

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-31623275657228633602009-09-10T11:12:00.005-05:002009-09-10T11:51:29.136-05:00

First off, I don't' know WHY I'm still wasting time evaluating what went wrong with me and the guy I was seeing. And yes, I'm wasting time. The more I think about it, the more I get pissed off at him and the whole situation. Then I start to tell myself that I'm just getting mad so I can get over it; that that may be the only way to really move on...to think he's horrible. Reality is, he isn't...

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-85047523729209575362009-08-24T09:51:00.003-05:002009-08-24T10:25:49.318-05:00

"Don't make someone a priority who sees you as an option."Wow--what a wake-up call and something I need to remind myself of each and every day. I wish I could claim that I was the brilliant mind who originally said that, but I can't. I read it somewhere on Twitter months ago and it's stuck with me ever since. To update on previous posts, things are pretty much no longer with the guy. Once I got

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-83059298903249624812009-07-28T13:47:00.002-05:002009-07-28T14:07:46.752-05:00

This is a loaded question...so get ready for it:I'm on a 2+ week road trip across America right now. Once in a lifetime opportunity and simply amazing, but the stress I'm putting on myself is ridiculous! 2 weeks in an RV, campsites, gas station food for meals, little sleep, trying to conduct business on the road, and so much more. Has it been fun--yes, but I am so ready to get home and be in my

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-85585175349288719392009-07-26T23:27:00.002-05:002009-07-26T23:36:31.313-05:00

This month has been nuts! I finally moved to San Francisco from a few miles away, yet took off on a 2.5 week road trip only 3 days after moving in. I'm on the road now and can't wait to be home...to the new place with the fabulous view in the new city. Also can't wait to unpack and really get settled in. I'm losing precious time in this new place I'm calling 'home'.I'm also ready to get back to '

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-18435676198998946702009-07-18T16:03:00.002-05:002009-07-18T16:16:03.824-05:00

I can't tell if I'm being a total girl or if there's actually something going on, but lately, I feel like I'm the girl in "He's just not that in to you." You know...the one who justifies everything and doesn't "get" that he's just not that in to her. Yeah--but then I've been told I over analyze things. Who knows?!The guy I'm seeing tells me he thinks about me all the time, yet when I text in the

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-52620748789135614182009-07-07T01:02:00.002-05:002009-07-07T12:37:25.524-05:00

Yes, I've been blogging over here more often, but trust me...I need to. The entire purpose of this blog is to work through the issues I've been ignoring for years. There are some major things happening that are causing me to face those issues, or at least think about them after ignoring for so long.There's a boy in my life. Wait...correction. There's a man in my life. :) We've had many honest

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-47633792388087483892009-06-30T11:48:00.002-05:002009-06-30T12:45:24.312-05:00

I can't believe that it's already been 3 weeks since my last post. The good news is that I've seen the new guy twice since the last post and things are going very well. But you know me, I wonder if they're going *too* well.The same week of my last post, I bought a ticket to visit him. Why so soon? Partially because I didn't want to stay with him and needed to coordinate with a girl friend locally

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-38853908739894466502009-06-09T09:18:00.003-05:002009-06-09T13:31:40.382-05:00

I'm realizing more and more that I'm seriously effed up when it comes to relationships. I'm probably not as bad as I think I am, or at least I hope that's the case.I recently decided that I was going to be more open to what the universe was bringing my way. Whatever I've been doing, or not doing, as the case may be, isn't getting me anywhere. I've been told that I have a wall up when it comes to

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-35059077257960710622009-05-13T22:44:00.004-05:002009-05-13T23:12:09.585-05:00

Wow--it's been over 5 months since I've posted here. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. I've started a public blog and have tried focusing my efforts there. However, it's hard for me to be 100% transparent as it's tied to my 'personal brand' and there are things I need to get out that aren't quite appropriate for the public side. I just can't do it...yet.This has been a super rough week. I'm

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-77428482723550519172008-11-25T22:38:00.004-06:002008-11-25T23:49:06.839-06:00

A few years ago, I walked into my job, ready to teach my pre-school sports class in less than an hour. I was surprised to see my boss in so early. I quickly learned he was there to give me my final check and help me carry my stuff to my car as he was 'no longer able to keep me on payroll, effective immediately.' A few months earlier, the girl I replaced was hired back as what she went off to do

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-91796663181728452222008-11-22T10:51:00.002-06:002008-11-22T11:32:59.561-06:00

First off, I've blown NaBloPoMo. Bad timing to do a post a day, or even 30 posts in 30 days. I've been blogging a bit more than normal, so I guess that's a plus. Maybe next year NaBloPoMo. :-/I had dinner the other night with a group of amazing women. We get together once a month and it's a place that is completely safe to be honest as well as a place to encourage each other. Friendships are

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-82618143299634301422008-11-16T00:33:00.002-06:002008-11-16T00:43:05.573-06:00

Am I still in the game if I make sure I post 30 times in 30 days? Or are the rules 1 post per day? Either way, I've got some major catching up to do. Part of the reason I've been slacking is that I've had friends in from out of town since last week. It's so good to have the 4 of them here. These are people who I'm sure will be friends for the rest of my life. They're each amazing in their

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-59462013130382328722008-11-09T13:17:00.002-06:002008-11-09T13:25:14.422-06:00

Last night, multiple times, I was struck with the thought, "Is this really my life? How'd I get here??" Wait, wait...seeing as you can't interpret tone via blogpost, let me explain, this is a GOOD question being asked. :D I'm realizing more and more how awesome the people are I've met since moving to CA a few months ago. For instance:The food and wine critic who is helping me coordinate a

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-29037186668007660692008-11-08T00:13:00.003-06:002008-11-08T00:33:20.331-06:00

Last night, I had the chance to hang out with another female doing similar work and within the same circle. We have mutual friends and have seen each other at events, but last night we actually had a chance to chat a bit. Was a great time getting to know her better. (Gaw--this sounds like a date or something. It totally wasn't.) Anyways, we asked the "How old are you" question and come to find

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-46149402427692924452008-11-06T00:08:00.002-06:002008-11-06T00:12:55.806-06:00

I usually call my mom on Sundays but didn't want to this week, so I didn't. Why didn't I want to talk to her? Because I'd have to tell her that I was back into job searching and am not sure what to do. She called tonight...she must've known.I answered and decided I had to tell her. I'm still working, but the pay has been cut significantly, meaning I'll have to find something else to help pay

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-35612655165113524452008-11-04T16:52:00.002-06:002008-11-04T17:14:24.744-06:00

Pay no attention to what the time stamps says, this is my first post today. The previous post was before midnight PST, but my Blogger settings showed I was in CST. BOOO!So yes, I voted. It took less time to vote than t did to walk to the polling place 2 blocks away. Was a little ticked that they didn't ask for identification when I checked in. I could've been anyone. Disturbing, really.

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-76615029439573580042008-11-04T00:35:00.002-06:002008-11-04T00:47:14.275-06:00

I looked at my post from yesterday and it's stamped as today. No, no, no...it was completed by midnight PST on Sunday. I think maybe my time zone is still listed as central which may be the problem. Anyways...I did post yesterday.Today's been a weird day. I'm in the process of a job hunt, kinda, as my current job just put me to commission only due to the economy. I'm fine with staying on and

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-53627777700066089652008-11-03T00:42:00.003-06:002008-11-03T01:01:03.392-06:00

"...I wouldn't be nearly so self-conscious and insecure."These are words put out into the universe from a friend. As I read them I thought, 'Wow--I most definitely could have said this same thing.'Being an over-achiever and a perfectionist is possibly the worst combination ever. To me, nothing is ever perfect and there's always room for improvement. When people tell me how great a job I'm doing

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-31523177873315752942008-11-01T17:59:00.003-05:002008-11-01T18:16:53.456-05:00

NaBloPoMo starts today (thanks for the reminder FreeAndFlawed). What does that mean? 30 posts in 30 days. I'm actually excited about this as I really have things I need to take time to think about and blogging is my way of doing that. (I seriously sound like a broken record and say this ALL. THE. TIME!)I've been thinking a lot lately about making this blog known. Only a handful of my friends

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-1834127286311682142008-09-25T10:29:00.002-05:002008-09-25T10:49:52.541-05:00

I've been traveling since my last post. How foolish of me to think I'd blog while on the road. There's no way I could've done that as I look back on all that happened.The first trip was business and was OK. It was a great opportunity to really put my 30-day challenge to work and I failed. The first night, a major party, I only wanted to talk to the people I knew and hang out with them. It

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-44190132332995667692008-09-18T19:44:00.003-05:002008-09-18T20:24:35.811-05:00

Lately, I've felt very scatterbrained. In my work, in my personal life, in everything really.Seeing as I work whenever I want, and sometimes from home, I don't usually set an alarm and just wake up whenever. This tends to be between 7am and 8am on most mornings and I usually have the laptop open by 8am. I then catch up on facebook/twitter feeds from the evening before and then check out emails.

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-22776783984747173342008-09-07T10:39:00.002-05:002008-09-07T12:05:09.698-05:00

I try to keep info here pretty vague as I don't want people to 'discover' me, but I'll give up a little more information. I work in the social networking scene. Granted, I'm behind the scenes on things, until people figure out who I work for. Part of my job this summer included traveling around to different cities and hosting events. It was a blast and I really enjoyed it. I wish I had had

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-24426526219016745152008-09-01T15:06:00.003-05:002008-09-01T15:37:25.140-05:00

It's been 3+ weeks since I've posted and that wasn't even a great post. Yes, I've been busy, but that's not why I haven't posted. Let's be real honest...it has more to do with avoiding issues than anything else. I've debated how to tackle all that's happened, but I think the best option right now will be to bullet point and then go back and do separate posts, digging deeper into it all. Let's

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-49826599995560511172008-08-11T01:11:00.003-05:002008-08-11T01:27:45.613-05:00

I've been so delinquent lately on posting and I apologize. I blame it partially on the fact that there have been some major things happen over the past few weeks (no...I don't have a NEW job!) I also blame it on avoiding things I don't want to deal with or think about. Same old story, right?Last time I checked in, the topic was dating and how there was a major lack in my life of it.

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-32503202491575334162008-07-31T22:44:00.002-05:002008-07-31T23:15:32.222-05:00

Wow--I've missed out on blogging and was recently reminded by someone asking where I've been that it's been a while. So sorry. =( Life's been busy, but very good. 1. I recently moved. Still in the Bay area, but closer and I love it! My roommate will arrive (with all of her furniture) in a week or so. Can't wait to really get settled into CA life.2. I'm traveling quite a bit for my job

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-82810812220135438142008-06-29T12:27:00.002-05:002008-06-29T12:45:37.817-05:00

As I drove home from San Francisco last night, I had a hard time believing that I was really 'living' in California. I've never dreamt about making my way west, yet here I am. I've been here now for 2 months, but it doesn't feel like it's been that long or that I'm settling in. I think I've really been holding back on a lot of things due to the issue that the plan was to be in one place for 3

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-81717181689105502942008-06-09T03:17:00.002-05:002008-06-09T03:39:01.658-05:00

Yes, I'm back. It's been way too long and I know that I've been avoiding blogging because I've been avoiding issues at hand. That and I've been swamped with work! *This is actually something that isn't bothering me...more about that in a second.*Because it's late, and I don't think I'm ready to jump into a 'deep thoughts' post, I'll give some tidbits to chew on:The funk of the past few months

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-49958847441140133882008-05-27T02:25:00.002-05:002008-05-27T02:29:02.905-05:00

Yeah, a little. There's a lot floating around that I'm not ready to deal with, so I'm just not blogging right now.The new job is good. I'm getting into it a bit more and have had some great talks with the team about what's to come. It really is exciting to think I'm going to be a part of all of this.On the other hand, I still hurt about leaving the other job. Just tonight, i got really sad

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-23822395750411802192008-05-16T20:13:00.002-05:002008-05-16T20:22:12.151-05:00

And it hurts. I'm on the verge of tears and can feel the panic rising in my chest. I made an effort today to contact n (the former boss/partner/teammate and former friend). I needed to drop some business stuff off at his place and sent him a text letting him know I was headed over. Our normal arrangement was for me to leave things in the mailbox and not even see him, so that part didn't feel

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-78892506550039715502008-05-14T19:32:00.003-05:002008-05-14T19:48:00.102-05:00

I have a new job. What?!?! Didn't I just move to CA for another job? Yeah, I did. And it was good, for the most part. Not entirely what I had expected or hoped for. Definitely had some major things to work through to try to make the working relationship better between my *damn, I don't even know what to call him...boss, partner, teammate?* I still don't know what to think about all of this.

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-12169221119130585002008-05-07T23:20:00.003-05:002008-05-07T23:36:02.132-05:00

Ok, so it's not a 'lovin' feeling' I've lost, but I've lost something and it's sent me on a roller coaster of emotions. I have no idea what the freak is going on, but I'm just not excited about the new job. At least not on the surface. I can feel a little spark, deep down inside that is screaming "I'm still here!!! Don't give up on me and let me out, will ya?!" Working relationship has been

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-49514182693701665002008-05-04T15:55:00.003-05:002008-05-04T16:16:42.010-05:00

Well, I've made the move. It's over and I'm here. Whew! I thought it would never come. Still getting settled in a bit...boxes to unpack, bank accounts to set up, grocery stores to get familiar with, areas to learn, car registration/drivers license to get, salon/spa to find (I need my hair cut soon), nearest gym, test out bars to find the one that feels best for those nights I need to get out

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-61044766292568685622008-04-29T18:38:00.003-05:002008-04-29T18:47:05.533-05:00

I'm on the edge of a breakdown. It just needs to happen so I can get it out and move on. However, it's been over 2 weeks since I've been in a place where I could do this. My best friend goes home tomorrow, which will allow me some 'alone' time, kind of. The new living situation (with 3 others) doesn't really allow me to have 'alone' time either. I guess I can just shut the door to my room

tearsinmycoffeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09927474264386809088noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4087358870763367988.post-45844632697470222372008-04-22T22:59:00.002-05:002008-04-22T23:28:42.505-05:00

Today's been weird. Wait, the past 2 months have been weird. I haven't felt like myself. However, I haven't really taken time to focus on what the issues have been because life has been moving at lightning speed. I've been focused on other things...other people... But now that things are getting back to normal, meaning one job, not thinking about moving (well, I am moving again in 3 months,

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Yes, I've disappeared lately. Life has been nuts and thankfully, it's starting to calm down a bit, but is now all catching up with me at the same time. I've been in survival mode lately...one thing at a time...what's more important at the moment? What can wait another day or two?I've left the city I've lived in for 4 years and am now on a road trip out west for the new job. I'm in Oklahoma,

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When your heart and your head are in a struggle, which one should win the battle? Head? This is the logical way of thinking. It knows what's right, has rhyme and reason and is sometimes the bully in the battle.Heart? This is the emotional way of thinking. Often, it knows something completely unseen by the head. Some would say that the heart and the gut are cousins. My gut is mute as I

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Went to a wedding earlier today and reception tonight. Seriously considered bailing on the reception as I felt very awkward at the wedding. My own insecurities, nothing else, and so I decided to suck it up and go to the reception. Glad I did as something was sparked in me through conversations with others.I had the opportunity to tell 4 different people about what I'm moving away to do.

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I woke up crying this morning because of a dream. Not a few tears, but a lot. There's a lot of interpretation that can go into dreams and I have used http://dreammoods.com to help me figure out what was going on in mine. I won't go into to the dream, but will tell you that I didn't recognize anyone in it. 1. Underpass of a bridge, but had to search for BRIDGE on Dream Moods: "Bridges

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These past few weeks have been interesting, to say the least. Something was not right this past weekend. I wasn't myself. The excitement about the event and about seeing people wasn't there. Part of it could be associated with exhaustion that was setting in. Part of it can definitely be because of the strained relationships the came to the forefront of everything this weekend.I can't even get

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So, the conference was this weekend. Met a lot of fun people. Collected a lot of business cards and gave out 0 (I don't have any!). Venue could've been better with sound, but I think all in all it went great. Really, it was an amazing time and the feedback we got was pretty positive.So what's this about thick skin? I let my feelings get hurt bad over something small. A question that was

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Seriously...Monday, for a solid hour, I thought it was Tuesday. My roommate broke the news to me. Today feels like Wednesday. I've lost a day somewhere, but really, when you think about it, I've gained a day.*sidenote...I make no promises about this post as I'm a bit delirious from well, i don't know what from...being so tired I can't see straight? Probably.*Tomorrow's the last day at the job

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Some things were stirred up yesterday that I need to deal with and I know that I've needed to face the issues for years. But I keep avoiding them. I really think I may need to see a therapist to work through because this is a whole issue bigger than I can tackle. But I don't have a need to do it right now as it pertains to something that's irrelevant in my life, sex. As I sat in church, of all

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Week 9: I forgo taking advantage of anyone because of his ignorance, status, or financial straits. I forgo the change to use any charms of word, body, or mind to seduce or trick others.Here we go with week 9 of Everyday Commitments (though it's the 13th week of the year. Ouch!) As I read the Commitment, I didn't think that it would apply much. Then I read the chapter. I don't think I take

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have you ever met one of those people who asks how you're doing and you say 'fine!' and then they give you the look. You know, they twist their head a little, squint their eyes and look right at you and say, "Really?" And then you bust into tears? No? Maybe that's just me.No tears today, but ran into one of 'those' people today. He's a vice-president in our office and I used to work for him.

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Week 8: I can become stronger in asking for what I want without demand, manipulation, or expectation. As I remain respectful of the timing, wishes and limits of others, I can take no for an answer.Here again, I'm a few weeks behind in posting from "Everyday Commitments" by David Richo. I decided to check out what was next in the book and the timing is great for this as I'm in negotiations again

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Love this song and it was finally released on ITunes a few weeks ago. Now, the video is out:It's my God-forsaken right to be loved...

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Most people dread packing and moving, but not me. I love it! I love going through my stuff and thinking about about who I was and who I've become. I love merging and purging, which doesn't happen as often as it should when I'm not preparing for a move. I love getting rid of clothes that don't fit me anymore (which I'm doing today--3 bags worth!)There's also the excitement that comes along with

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Have you ever had one of those times when you wanted to say something to someone, but you didn't? I'm not talking about saying something meaningful, like how much you like someone, or encouraging, like you should chase your dreams. No...I'm talking about something hurtful. Something inappropriate. Something that probably shouldn't be said, but is truthful. Thankfully, I didn't say it. There

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I can feel it in my chest. Sitting there. A feeling of excitement, anxiety, sadness and just a drop of fear all mixed together. And it's great!I told my boss yesterday that my official last day is two weeks away. I won't be moving for a few weeks after that, but it will give me time to jump into the new job, get packed, tie things up here and move on. Confession...the past two days at work,

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After yesterday's post, something hit me. I can't let fear have power over me. Do I want this? Hell yes, I do. If I feel that strongly about it, I can't let anything stop me. I'm fighting for what I want, because if I don't...who will?I remembered this quote from the Everyday Commitments book I've been posting about:Fear thrives on powerlessness, the belief that we have no options. I definitely

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Today's been weird. Within the last few hours, I've been overwhelmed by fear about the future...both immediate and long-term...both personally and professionally. I can't do this. I can't let the fear of the unknown overwhelm me to the point of turning away from things. I don't want to turn away, but the unknown aspect makes me wonder what's going to happen, if anything at all.I hate not

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I arrived home yesterday after my third trip in 4 weeks. I don't know if this last week wore me out or if it's been all 3 trips, but I slept most of the afternoon/evening yesterday after I got home. I'm still feeling a bit tired today, but there's lots to do.I'm starting to get a little nervous and excited about the move. I'm ready for a change, to meet new people, to face the challenges and

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Wow! As my staff conference is coming to a close, it just hit me that this is my last night with all of my staff. I'm sitting in the meeting room right now as they are all group together in discussion over the major conferences that for 4 years, I've played a major part in pulling off. I'd say 60% of my job revolved around these conferences and now, it's 0%. I've been asked by the guy taking

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Tonight's been a good night. After the rough week I've had, I needed a good night. Hung out with some of my staff (the 'pledges' as we call them since they're first year staff), had a great meal and a few drinks, played catchphrase and laughed....a lot! Add to that the weather for the evening. Heavy rain, lightning and even some thunder in there. I love the rain...the smell, the feel of the

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**So much for trying to post each day this week. It's been a little rough and I haven't had much time or wanted to post about stuff, so I'll throw it all together in one long post, which I'm sure no one will read all the way through!**This week has definitely been a rollercoaster of emotions. This is the beginning of the end of my time with my current job as I’ll be finishing up in about a

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I always enjoy meeting new people. I'm a WOOer, (one of my results from 'Now, Discover Your Strengths": People strong in the Woo theme love the challenge of meeting new people and winning them over. They derive satisfaction from breaking the ice and making a connection with another person.) I often win others over. It's very easy for me and I like doing it, not that I try.Yesterday, I had a 3

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Week 7: I am becoming more willing to express all my own feelings and to receive those of others, including fear, joy grief, and tenderness. I am practicing ways to share anger nonviolently, in ways that are not abusive, threatening, blaming, or out of control.Interesting thoughts from Everyday Commitments for week 7 (I think I'm behind a few weeks! Life's been busy.) I am definitely becoming

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I'm waiting to see if it will go away and am trying not to freak myself out. Usually things like this don't bother me and my usual response is to wait it out, which is what I'll probably do this time. I'm sure it's nothing, but it's made it hard to concentrate on other things this afternoon.I found a lump in my breast yesterday, different than the 'normal' ones. This one's small and round,

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I just completed my last student conference with my job and will be meeting with all of our staff next week for our annual meeting, which will be my last time with them. Wow--tearing up a bit as I type this.As excited as I am to move on to a new and amazing opportunity, I can't believe how much I've grown and how far I've come since I started my job almost 4 years ago. It hasn't always been

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I left my last post on a negative note. Have been super busy as I leave tomorrow morning for conference 2 of 4 over the next 5 weeks. A few updates:**I'm really digging psychologytoday.com website. I am so intrigued by what makes me (and others) tick. Just read a great article on Opening up to Happiness. Good stuff and I look forward to digging around there more!**I feel like I've been

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Today's been tough emotionally. I've been weepy now for 2 days and think a lot of it has to do with the weather. Here again, we got snow and ice last night. So bad that a lot of the city's shut down...again. Normal snowfall for a winter is 59 inches and we've had over 80 inches now. YUK! Here's a view from my balcony:I've got to get out of this funk. It's effecting me in too many ways and

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I'm angry, hurt, pissed off, scared, broken, but most of all....I'm done. I give up. I don't have the fight in me anymore. I want to turn my emotions off. Stop caring. Stop encouraging. Stop loving. Which in turn I hope will make me stop hurting. I should've seen this from a mile away. I knew it was coming and just today...it arrived, first class...straight to my heart. My heart finally

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I love lists. Something about having a picture of what needs to be done, not the mention the satisfaction of crossing something off of the list and seeing it completed.Lately, I've neglected my list making time. This is crazy as I'm balancing 2 jobs, trying to have a social life, maintain my apartment (I'd be so embarrassed to have people over right now!), planning a move and trying to keep my

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He said this to me almost a year ago. We hadn't really hung out just the two of us, but we were leaving a function together (I came with someone else) and we made plans that evening to spend two entire days watching basketball together later that week (I'm a sucker for March Madness). We had great conversation about dating (in general, though there were some hidden agendas), life, career and

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Today...nothing much happened, but after work...watch out. I've already had 2 glasses of wine and am ready to finish off the bottle if I have to. I have a feeling I may have multiple posts tonight. ;) Let's start with the playlist for the evening (I'm listening to this right now):Cry Me a River by the Cliks (Yes, it's the Justin Timberlake song, but it's much better!)I Need More Love by Robert

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**My thoughts have been so strong that I had to get out of bed at 4:30am to write this. Hate that!** I definitely have never been 'lucky in love' and more times than not, I've put it out there, taken a chance, only to have nothing in return. This burned me so much to the point that I shut down and tried to ignore the feelings I had for anyone. This definitely isn't a way to live life, but it

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Week 6 I accept the fact of fear, allow myself to feel my fear fully, and act so that fear does not interfere with my life choices.The kind of fear is the one we sometime feel with reason. As the book, "Everyday Commitments" puts it, "Our guesses and fantasies about what might happen keep us afraid of events and experiences that may never befall us." Over the past few months, I've had a chance

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Crap--Valentine's Day is this week. As I watched this, I realized I could've written many of them. I *heart* Postsecret.

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I went to bed around 2:30am last night and was up around 7am this morning. Some may blame it on the coffee I had at 10pm, but not me. I think the culprit are all the thoughts running through my mind. Hung out with a friend last night who is toying with the idea of moving to CA with me. See, I'm not the only one crazy! As we talked, she said she's sick of the weather/snow (can I get an AMEN?)

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There's something about shoes that make me feel sexy. Wait, not just shoes...heels. I bought a few more pair this week and thought I should document this, in case I become a recovering addict at some point:I'm going to have a hard time finding an apartment big enough for me and my shoes when I move West. And no, I will not part with my shoes. I wear them all and am a great bargin shopper.

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I'm a romantic. What girl isn't? I think deep down, guys are too and it's great when you find one who's able to express that and be secure in it. I'm a sucker for a great love story and was reminded of one that goes down in the books for me. Has to do with one of my favorite staff who lives in San Diego. Check this out...She works with college students at 3 different universities in San

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No really...I have the worst migraine I've ever had. I can't do anything but sleep to try to relieve the pain. It's my entire head...from the front, over the top and down to the base of my neck, making me sick to my stomach. I'm on the verge of tears because I don't know what to do to try to feel better. =(

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I'll be kicking off my 9 day vacation in Orlando in a few weeks and I can't wait. This will be my final time with my staff as I move on to the new job in a few months. I also can't wait because they're talking about a foot of snow in the next 12 hours. Seriously...can't wait to be done with this crap! Of course, I had plans to lose weight and tone up before going to Orlando. And though I

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Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common-sense.— Helen Rowland, journalist/humorist

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I am not perfect, but I am sincerely committed to working on myself.Week 5 in Everyday Commitments is the very thought behind this blog. It says, "Our goal is not perfection, only commitment to ongoing work on ourselves." It goes on to say, "The work is that of addressing, processing and resolving issues that remain unfinished from our past or are stressful in the present." The chapter has

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This morning, he stared into my eyes and saw into my soul. J, who I thought I would never see again was standing before me and I know I lit up. I wonder if he could see my pleasure from inside of seeing him while we talked. J and I met via email a few years ago as he was a student contact for his campus for the conference I plan. I was immediately impressed with his leadership and

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I've been working for 16 hours straight and am ready for bed. Today was the day that I've been working the past 6 months for. It's been long hours and lots of work and today is always my worst day of the conference (registration/arrival) and I was really hoping for a little encouragement from my friends who know how hellish this time is for me, and I got nothing. No phone calls...no emails

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Have you ever said something that you wished you could take back? Maybe you spoke too soon or said something you really didn't mean to or used words to hurt someone you care about. I've learned over the past year to think about things before I speak, when I really have something to say. When something has really upset me, I take a while to think about how to communicate that, which is better

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Well...buzzed post. Haven't had dinner and am on my third glass of wine. I need to pack after I post, which will be interesting. Hopefully I make good choices while intoxicated. =)There's a lot going on that I could post about, but some of it's not appropriate at this time. So those posts will have to wait. Topic of choice tonight...emotions (which I have now typed three times to get right!

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I have a huge college student conference that I'm overseeing this weekend and I'm planning on working tonight until at least 10pm. I'm hoping this will give me a normal work day on Tuesday and help us get on the road at the right time on Wednesday (we were 2 hours late last year!) I do have a bottle of wine waiting for me at home to partake and help me unwind from the day. Well, make that a

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I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and

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It's been many years since I've felt like this. Something inside of me is waking up and the adrenaline is starting to pump. I'm a little scared of what's to come, but am willing to take the risk. It could hurt, yes. I could look the fool. But really...I don't care! This piece of me hasn't been alive in over 4 years and I'm ready to bring it back to my life.I've been talking about my move to

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My first job 'real' job (translation=full-time, with benefits) was with The Little Gym. It was here where I taught kids for 45 hours a week, yet I really learned a lot from the kids which helped form my outlook on life. The Little Gym is a non-competitive gymnastics based training program for kids ages 6 months old through 12 years old. I mainly worked with the 6 month olds-5 year olds. I

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Soooooo cute:

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**WARNING---I'm going to be a bit whiny here. You've been warned.** I hate being sick. It doesn't happen too often but I've now been fighting a cold since Friday and I'm ready to be done with it. I can't sleep at night (I went to bed around 8:15pm last night...but was up all night long) and am coughing all the time. I feel miserable. I wish there was someone around to take care of me...to

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Why do we not express our thoughts and feelings more often? This is something that for the past year I've been trying to do more often and can't tell you how freeing and life-giving it's been. Coming from a single parent family where mom was never home, communication wasn't something we did well. It's hard for me to have the 'how was your day' conversation with roommates and friends because I

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I don't think it's possible to truly forgive someone without being able to trust them again. What do you think? Doesn't the trust piece compliment and complete the forgiveness? Think about it...you get busted for throwing a party while your parents are out of town. They say they forgive you, but won't leave you home alone again for a weekend. Do they really forgive you if they can't trust

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Week 3No matter what happens to me, I am intent on remaining personally grounded: no longer thrown off course by events or by my reactions to them.Hmmm....remaining personally grounded. Great thought, though I think it may take some effort on my part. I definitely could've used this right before Christmas as I felt my world was falling apart (phone issues, car break-in, etc.). David Richo,

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I was home sick on Friday and took a break to watch a favorite movie (it's on VHS...need to upgrade to DVD), Playing By Heart. Ever heard of it? Probably not, but check out the cast: Sean Connery, Angelina Jolie, Dennis Quaid, Gena Rowlands, Jillian Anderson, Jon Stewart, Ryan Phillipe, Anthony Edwards, Jay Mohr, and the list goes on. Great movie...makes you think about life and love.I connect

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Week 2More and more, I say yes to the givens of human life. Everything changes and ends; things will not always go according to plan; life is not always fair or pain-free; and people are not always loving, honest, generous, or loyal.I got some news today that was disappointing. I've been working on an event for a client; partnering with someone I've never met on it who was going to do this

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I was out last night with some friends (more about this in a bit...) and one of my guy friends met up with us later in the evening. As we started talking, he said, "I haven't seen you in so long." We finally figured out our last encounter had been in November. Really? Since November? Ouch! This is a guy who is a good friend and yet, we've managed to lose touch with each other.Confession, I

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Week 1I am always looking for ways to intend, express, and act with loving-kindness.Isn't it amazing how much more enjoyable life is when you love those around you, even if they're strangers? One of my strengths is WOOing. That stands for "Winning Others Over" from the "Now, Discover Your Strengths" book by Marcus Buckingham. (Great for teams working together or spouses. Highly recommend it!)

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Sometimes I really hate having options in front of me, especially when I'm happy with what I'm already doing. Do I check out the new option...sounds interesting with lots of potential? orDo I let it pass me by and wonder 'what if' for the rest of my life?Serously! This is so not funny...and thus why you don't create a plan which could cause you to be blind to new options or opportunities. Crap.

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